I have found that a lot of the time in life you feel like you’re trying to get out of a hole.
I mean, it’s not so much that you’re trying to make your life better but rather that you’re trying to avoid it getting worse, or maybe trying to escape from something you don’t like, for example, debt, depression over something that happened (like a breakup or grief or something), dealing with difficult people, and so on.
We all have our things in life that we’re trying to deal with, escape from.
Sometimes you manage to climb up a little bit out of that hole. You’re slowly getting near the top, and bang you slip back down to the bottom again. Often this fall is so depressing that you want to lie there for a while and just give in and wallow in it.
It’s like you’ve finally gotten to take a step forward, or rather a step up. You’re on the next level up in life. Things are just a little bit better, but now you’re worst fear is falling back down again. You’re feeling precarious on this step. You aren’t sure of your footing. You’re teetering there afraid of falling down again, and unfortunately you do. Sometimes you gently slip back down to where you were without even realising what’s going. Sometimes you fall hard. I think the former is the more usual.
I think part of the problem here is this. You finally pick up the courage, the confidence, the physical and mental energy to make that step up, and as you do that, as you place your foot on the next step up you’re thinking
“Shit I’m gonna fall, I’m gonna fall, I’m gonna fall. Please don’t let me fall back down there. I’ve finally just gotten up a little and I’m gonna fall again. Please don’t let me…”
All your energy is focussed on where you were. You’re not focussed on where you want to be – the next step up. Don’t worry about getting to the top. Don’t worry about falling down again. Just focus on the next step up. When you’re driving you’re supposed to look where you want to go, not where you’re frightened to go. The same applies here. Focus on the next step. Even though youve only just gotten on to this step. Even though you’d like to solidify your presence here, ground your feet here. Even though you think you should be confident before moving on.
Life doesn’t work that way.
Just keep on moving up. Even though it might take you a long time to make it to that next step, keep looking at it anyway. You are going to make it, because the only other option is falling back down. It’s far easier to lift something heavy than it is to hold it.
Don’t try to hold your position on this step. It’s too difficult. Keep moving up. Slowly, steadily, small steps but you are doing it. You are moving up. Set fire to the step behind you so you know you can’t fall back there. It can’t be a cushion for you any longer.
Step up, and love it.
Feel fantastic because you are fantastic. Every step up you take is a massive achievement. You are moving onward and upward. You know where you’re going.
Feel fantastic. Love it!
Tags: Confidence, Fear, Moving Forward
