How to move up a level in life – just a little bit!

I have found that a lot of the time in life you feel like you’re trying to get out of a hole. 

I mean, it’s not so much that you’re trying to make your life better but rather that you’re trying to avoid it getting worse, or maybe trying to escape from something you don’t like, for example, debt, depression over something that happened (like a breakup or grief or something), dealing with difficult people, and so on.

We all have our things in life that we’re trying to deal with, escape from. 

Sometimes you manage to climb up a little bit out of that hole. You’re slowly getting near the top, and bang you slip back down to the bottom again. Often this fall is so depressing that you want to lie there for a while and just give in and wallow in it.

It’s like you’ve finally gotten to take a step forward, or rather a step up. You’re on the next level up in life. Things are just a little bit better, but now you’re worst fear is falling back down again. You’re feeling precarious on this step. You aren’t sure of your footing. You’re teetering there afraid of falling down again, and unfortunately you do. Sometimes you gently slip back down to where you were without even realising what’s going. Sometimes you fall hard. I think the former is the more usual.

I think part of the problem here is this. You finally pick up the courage, the confidence, the physical and mental energy to make that step up, and as you do that, as you place your foot on the next step up you’re thinking 

“Shit I’m gonna fall, I’m gonna fall, I’m gonna fall. Please don’t let me fall back down there. I’ve finally just gotten up a little and I’m gonna fall again. Please don’t let me…”

All your energy is focussed on where you were. You’re not focussed on where you want to be – the next step up. Don’t worry about getting to the top. Don’t worry about falling down again. Just focus on the next step up.  When you’re driving you’re supposed to look where you want to go, not where you’re frightened to go. The same applies here. Focus on the next step. Even though youve only just gotten on to this step. Even though you’d like to solidify your presence here, ground your feet here. Even though you think you should be confident before moving on.

Life doesn’t work that way. 

Just keep on moving up. Even though it might take you a long time to make it to that next step, keep looking at it anyway. You are going to make it, because the only other option is falling back down. It’s far easier to lift something heavy than it is to hold it. 

Don’t try to hold your position on this step. It’s too difficult. Keep moving up. Slowly, steadily, small steps but you are doing it. You are moving up. Set fire to the step behind you so you know you can’t fall back there. It can’t be a cushion for you any longer. 

Step up, and love it. 

Feel fantastic because you are fantastic. Every step up you take is a massive achievement. You are moving onward and upward. You know where you’re going. 

Feel fantastic. Love it!

You are monumentally greater than you can ever imagine

This world is beautiful, I have no doubt of that.

All you have to do is look at it to see it.

It is beautiful everywhere.

Yet we fear to look at, and see it.

We fear to see the beauty in nature.

We fear to see the beauty in other people.

We fear to see the beauty in ourselves.

Do you know that you are monumentally far greater than you could ever imagine?

I’m not saying that in a feel good you’re so special kinda way.

I mean it.

It’s a fact.

Consider all the good that’s in every person in the world, in every person that ever lived,

I know we can see badness in people and at times its hard to see anything else,

But seriously you know there’s good in the world,

You know there’s good people,

And you have to admit there’s good (even a small amount) in what you might perceive to be the worst of people,

Now imagine if you gathered up all that good, all that beauty and could put it in one place, in one container,

It’s all in you.

You contain all that good.

I don’t mean that potentially you could be that good. You just are that good.

Consider a car that can go at 250 miles per hour, but the owner only drives it at 60 miles per hour. You don’t say the car can only go at 60 miles per hour. It’s a 250 mile per hour car no matter what.

So matter what you do. You are that good and even better. You are far better than you can imagine.

You are everything you see.

you are this entire universe.

You are God.

So stop hiding away in this little word referred to as the perpendicular pronoun in “Yes, Minister”,

Stop believing you are just “I”.

You are everything.

I don’t mean you are part of everything.

I don’t mean you are connected to everything.

I really mean you are everything.

Don’t try to understand this, It can’t be understood with a rational mind.

It can only be known.

Just know it.

Just be.

That body you’re driving around is just a shell.

Next time you consider your body don’t say “My body”, refer to it as “This body which I use” (It’s a very liberating thought).

Use the word “I” as little as possible

The word “I” tries to squeeze you down, make you small. Imagine trying to compress your entire essence into “I”. Try not to use language to know who you are, I wish I didn’t have to use language to write this.

You are so much more than “I”.

Don’t be the little mouse scurrying back into it’s hole,

Fly out and up into the light.

Be.

I didn’t want to use the word “you” so much in this blog, but due to my limitations with the language I knew of no other way to say it. (I didn’t want to use the word “I” either but there you go…)

Look out at the beauty of nature and know that it is you.

Don’t just think “This is me”.

Thoughts are too limiting.

Feel it.

Know it.

This body which you use is just a tool.

Thoughts are just tools.

Use them. Don’t be them.

You’re conscious mind cannot possibly conceive the amount of goodness and beauty which is you. Just know that it is. (You’re conscious mind is probably trying to refute this right now, tell it to shut up for a while).

Try to fathom the vastness of the universe…You’re goodness is immeasurably greater than that.

Consider it.

Know it.

Feel the lump in your throat.

Feel the warmth in your chest.

Feel the light in your heart.

Your conscious mind and ego tell you of all your “Must Do’s”, “Should Do’s”, and “Could Do’s”.

If you could just know your true nature you’d never entertain that for even a second.

You may have seen the movie “The matrix”. There’s a scene that goes something like this:

NEO: “You mean I’ll be able to dogdge bullets?”

MORPHEUS: “No, I mean when you’re ready you won’t have to…”

What Morpheus means is that when Neo’s aware of his true nature bullets won’t be able to harm him (It’s deeper than that but it serves for here).

What that example means to us is that if we’re aware of our true nature the “Must Do’s”, “Should Do’s”, “Could Do’s”, etc won’t be able to affect us,

For example, (and perhaps most importantedly) We won’t feel the need for money.

Look at a bird soaring…It never thinks, it just does. It doesn’t need to plan, it just is.

Look at a beautiful tree reaching for the stars…It’s so beautiful and it does that without the least effort. Just naturally.

Look at you and me out there trying to make enough to survive…Is that natural? Is that our natural state of being…I don’t believe that it is.

Everything that exists is you…If I ask you to appreciate that, what will you say? “When you have time!”

What I’m asking you to do is the hardest thing in the world and the easiest thing in the world.

• Easy because you already know all this. It’s your true nature to know.

“It’s like a splinter in your mind” (Matrix again).

• Hard because you feel so attached to everything else, to the “I”, that you don’t want to, don’t know how to, can’t remember how to look at who you really are…

Know your true nature.

Go to nature.

Nature knows.

Go to nature and you will know better.

Turn away from what you feel you should know, and turn toward what you know in the deepest recesses of your being to be true.

The greatest challenge to all of use here is to remember who we are.

Know your true nature.

You are more good than your conscious mind can ever fathom.

Just be.

Fear’s Trap

I want

to get out

of this dirty old skin.

I’m sure

there’s a heart

nestled within.

Fear will

no longer

fence in the truth.

Fear

is a barrier

to thoughts

running smooth.

Sum it all up

with

one single word,

Fear

makes living

an empty

world.

I

will not fornicate

with fear anymore.

Fear

we are over

I’ll see you no more.

But

when fear

is gone,

inside there’s a  gap

fill it up

quickly

or fall back in fear’s trap.